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A Beacon of Hope

The Teaching of Father Ilarion

Holy Trinity Publications

On Repentance

Given on October 21/November 3, 2006

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit!

"[Redeem] the time, because the days are evil" (Eph 5:16). The call of the Apostle Paul in his Epistle to the Ephesians concerns us all, my dear ones. Yes, the days are evil, life is short, and we must remember this; we must feel it with all our hearts and understand how precious is the time allotted us.

Contemporary mankind believes that to think about time's fleetness means to think sad thoughts, thoughts that cause a wave of melancholy and gloom. Yet, this is not at all the case. On the contrary, every minute brings us closer to eternity; every minute asks what we have done to deserve it.

We are guests in this world, come for a short, very short, time out of nonexistence and disappearing into the mystery of eternity. Yet the Lord reveals to us that this short life has enormous significance for us, because it is a school of eternity. Here, our souls, our personalities, everything divine that is in us develops and is perfected.

For a person who has used up his time, wasting it on trivialities, on things pitiful and insignificant, this is a frightful thing. He looks back and finds that life has already passed by in petty concerns, in empty, fruitless gum-flapping, in various misguided activities that were not even worth thinking about. Time passes.

Time cannot be turned back a single second, and that is why the apostle implores us to conserve time, do not waste it, do not spend it on idle words or meaningless vanities, do not consume it in empty activities. Remember that every minute is precious. Every hour can cost a man eternal life. Thinking about this, we develop a different attitude toward our lives, our duties, our work and obligations, and everything that surrounds us. You must constantly remember this and carefully value every minute of your life, for at any moment, you may be called on high to answer for it.

Yet, this is not a cause for despondency; rather, it is a reflection on proper life, on our responsibility. With what we will come before the Lord? What have we done in this life in keeping with our calling? The consciousness that our life will one day end should be encouraging, strengthening, something that does not permit us to relax, to flap our gums, to fall into despondency, laziness, pettiness, and paltriness.

How beautiful life becomes when you realize your responsibility for the work entrusted to you, for the people around you! How truly full and meaningful it becomes! The remembrance of death makes us more spiritually focused, organized, responsible to ourselves and our neighbors. This especially concerns me, a sinner: in my advanced years and in my infirmities, I ought to live all the more zealously, laboring tirelessly in monastic activity, in unceasing prayer, in humility, patience, and heartfelt repentance.

How many stones are there on the earth?! Millions and billions. We trample them underfoot and walk by without noticing them. Yet, gold is very rare; it is found in little flecks, and a single gram is worth a considerable sum. Time is just as precious. So, let each of us have this hard and fast rule: to treat it seriously, carefully, and attentively. The holy fathers teach us to work while you work, pray while you pray, rest while you rest. Yet, there must be nothing meaningless or thoughtless in your life.

There is an expression: "to kill time." These are frightful words, for time is our life, and if we spend it in vain, we are killing our own lives. We must constantly see that nothing occurs in our lives without leaving a trace, that we are not living fruitlessly, in laziness, in idleness.

In addition, the apostle's words about conserving time and treating it with care teach us to discern what is important in life from what is secondary. What is important is what builds us up as Christians, as followers of Christ, what remains with us beyond the bounds of earthly existence. Everything else is subservient to what is important. We nourish ourselves, dress, and work to support ourselves in order to grow in spirit, for without this goal, we are no different from any animal or tree, for these also nourish themselves, grow, and multiply. Hence, let us redeem the time and treat it as a great gift from God.

Today, on this day of my joy, I wish to remind myself and you of the Gospel parable of the talents, which is very pertinent to me, a sinner. "The parable of the talents suggests that life is a time of trade," writes the Holy Hierarch Theophan of Vyshensk. "We must hasten to use this time, just as at market everyone hurries to trade as best he can. Even if someone has brought nothing but sandals or a cart, he does not sit on his hands, but uses all his skill to attract customers, to sell what he has and then buy what he needs."

Of all those who have received life from the Lord, none can say that he has not a single talent. Everyone has something. This means that everyone has something to trade, something with which to increase God's gifts. Do not look around and count what others have received; take a good, close look at yourself, determine precisely what you have within you and what you can acquire with what you have, and then act on this plan without shirking.

At the judgment, you will not be asked why you did not acquire ten talents when you had only one. You will be asked what you acquired with the talent given you. You will be rewarded not according to what you received, but according to what you acquired. No excuse will be accepted: not renown, nor poverty, nor lack of education. Where something was not given, it will not be asked of you. You had arms and legs, and you will be asked, what did you acquire with them? So, at God's judgment, the inequality of earthly status is brought into balance.

Here, I would like to cite some pertinent words of the holy fathers, which point us toward the paths of salvation which we require in our lives. Of these, the virtue of sincere repentance has always been essential, but particularly in our twenty-first century. "Repentance," writes Saint Mark the Ascetic, "is not limited either by time or by any works, but is accomplished by means of Christ's commandments." The work of repentance is accomplished by the following three virtues: purification of thoughts, unceasing prayer, and endurance of the sorrows that befall us. I hold that repentance is appropriate always and for everyone, both sinners and righteous, for there is no level of perfection which does not require the abovementioned virtues. Through them beginners are introduced to piety, the intermediate prosper therein, and the perfect are established in the same. The Lord commands all: "Repent"!

Repentance is essential for every Christian, and all the more so for the monk. "Think yourself far more sinful than every man," exhorts Saint Symeon the Reverent. "For when this thought occupies the mind and the heart for a long time, ordinarily a certain bright spiritual radiance like a beam appears within. And the more you seek it with firm attention, undistracted thought, great efforts, and tears, the more exceedingly bright and clear it appears. In appearing thus, it becomes beloved; in being loved, it cleanses; and in cleansing, it makes godlike."

Hence, those who are careful and believe sincerely acquire the kingdom of God here, in this life, within themselves, in their souls and in their hearts, as it is said in the Holy Gospel, "the kingdom of God is within you" (Luke 17:21).

It is essential that you unceasingly seek the kingdom of heaven within your heart, and in the end, we will mystically find within ourselves the wheat, and the pearl, and the leaven, and everything else, if we purify our mind's eye. For this reason, our Lord Jesus Christ said, "the Kingdom of God is within you," referring to the Divinity who abides in the heart.

I will conclude with the words of Saint Barsanuphius the Great:

May the Lord vouchsafe us to drink of the fount of wisdom, for those who drank therefrom forgot their very selves, being wholly outside the old man, and passed from the fount of wisdom to another fount, to love, which never faileth, and in this state they attained a degree that surpasses distraction and pompousness, becoming wholly mind, wholly eye, wholly bright, and wholly perfect, and were deified. They labored, were exalted, were glorified, were enlightened, and were enlivened, because they died first. They both rejoice and bring joy: they rejoice in the indivisible Trinity, and bring joy to the hosts on high.

Let us desire their state, let us run their course, let us covet their faith, let us acquire their humility and their patience in everything, that we may receive their inheritance. Let us hold fast to that unfailing love, that we may inherit the ineffable good things which "eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man ... which God has prepared for those who love Him" (1 Cor 2:9).

Amen!

Sermon on the Twenty-Ninth Sunday after Pentecost (December 14)

Given on December 14/27, 2005

In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit!

"The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord" (Job 1:21). With these words, the righteous Job the Long-Suffering praised the Lord. For what? For His benefactions, because the Lord had given him the greatest of earthly gifts. He had possessed everything, but was deprived of everything: "The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away." When Job spoke these words, he was already covered with leprosy, sitting somewhere outside the city, near its walls or in the wilderness, subjected to terrible sufferings, to terrible sickness, for in the hot East, leprosy often raged. It exists to this day, but you will not often encounter it. The Holy and Righteous John of Kronstadt says that leprosy is similar to smallpox, but it resembles cholera in the degree to which it afflicts the body. It afflicts like cholera and covers the body like smallpox. By God's mercy, I have never seen either disease. The ten lepers of whom the evangelist Luke speaks were afflicted with it. These sufferers are covered with festering wounds that eat away at the body, and the entire body becomes inflamed and afflicted with scabs. A person in this state gives off a stench; he lives suffering terribly until the illness reaches a vital organ — the heart or brain — and death comes.

These sufferers were driven from the city and lived somewhere in the wilderness, in the forests, in the mountains, in caves. Certain tenderhearted people would feed them and give them shelter from the heat, the cold, and the wind. Yet it was impossible to come close to the lepers, since the illness is highly contagious. The food or clothing brought for them would be dropped a little ways from them.

How the long-suffering Job suffered, and how courageously he endured the illness that had stricken him! Even his wife said, "Curse God and die!" To this he answered, "You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God, and shall we not accept adversity?" (Job 2:9–10). No, for this also we must praise God, as it is said, "Bless the Lord, O my soul, and all that is within me bless His holy name" (Ps 102:1).

In Luke's Gospel we are told that, these ten lepers heard that the Lord was coming to the village near which they lived. As the evangelist recounts, they began to cry out from afar, "Jesus, Master, have mercy on us!" (Luke 17:13). In answer to the cry of their souls, the Lord told them to go and show themselves to the priests. He did not say to them, "I heal you, I give you health, I release you from this terrible infirmity; you will be cleansed and will receive what you ask." What He said was, "Go." Here, we also hear of their courage, their faith, how they did not resist what they were told to do and went. They did not stop to think it over but believed Christ, and they went where He had sent them and received healing. This is the omnipotence and love of God; this is the boundlessness of His miraculous power. We think this is impossible, that it is impossible for me or anyone else condemned to their deathbeds to be healed, that it is impossible to draw a man out of sinful destruction. Yet these lepers believed they would receive everything, and they went, and they received it.

Yet, there was something which they left undone, and this is why they were deprived of God's blessings: they were indeed healed and showed themselves to the priest, but their actions and feelings toward the One who had healed them did not change in the least. Only one man among them (not an orthodox believer, not a Jew, but a Samaritan) saw God's mercy and power in the miracle that had occurred, saw the boundless love of the One who had healed him, and his heart was filled with gratitude. He went back and worshiped his healer as God, "giving Him thanks." "But where are the nine?" Christ replied. "Were there not any found who returned to give glory to God except this foreigner?" (Luke 17:16–18).

The leper who returned to the Teacher, notes Saint John Chrysostom, received more than healing from leprosy, for although physical leprosy is a terrible and agonizing illness, the holy fathers write that there is another leprosy: leprosy of the spirit, leprosy of the heart (passions, pride, ingratitude, fornication, debauchery, vainglory, hypocrisy, mercenariness, greed, drunkenness, rampant unbelief, indifference, heartlessness). This is a leprosy more terrible than the first; it is much stronger than physical leprosy, since one can rid oneself of the former in either temporal or eternal life, but it is impossible to be healed of leprosy of the soul and the spirit in eternal life if we have not been healed of it here, on earth, by spiritual means — by the grace of God, our will, and our zeal.

What, then, is the primary means of healing spiritual leprosy? It is everything that has taken place today in our church. Our treatment, our medicines, pills, and lozenges are the sacraments of confession, of tearful repentance, of spiritual lamentation, the sacrament of our rebirth, our spiritual transfiguration. We must not deceive God, nor our own selves, nor our faith, nor our hearts. We must walk the path of inner struggle with sins, the path of selflessness, the path of profound faith, of our ardent contact with the upper, spiritual world, with prayer, especially the prayer of Jesus, with fear of God, with hope in God and hope that our lives will change, with the constant thought of our spiritual leprosy.

The Holy Church and the Lord's Holy Gospel call us today to purify ourselves, to wash ourselves of spiritual leprosy, to be renewed, that we might not prove to be like the nine ungrateful Jews, that we might not become hardened in our negligence and slothfulness, in do-nothingness with regard to our spiritual development and improvement. Let us cry out to Christ, like the lepers in the Gospel, "Jesus, Teacher, have mercy on us!" Or, as the Apostle Peter cried out to him as he sank into the sea, "Lord, save me, for I perish!" The waves of life submerge us in the sea of the sins, passions, faults, and vices of this world. Everything seduces and intoxicates us; sin hangs over us like the heavy sword of Damocles. We excuse ourselves by saying that we cannot resist temptations, that everyone lives like this, doing what they ought not, but this is precisely the leprosy of sin. Here, we must have a profound comprehension of what is going on; we must experience a profound cry of repentance, humility, and fear before God. Without this repentant cry to the Lord, we will not be saved. We must yell!

Not far from us is Christ. He is here, beside us, in our hearts! Sickness comes upon me, and He is here! He calls! If a sense of guilt, a prayerful cry, arises in me, He is here! He is calling me! If I have touched the altar and received and tasted the priceless Body and Blood of Christ, being united with Christ in them, this is a great gift of God, this is God's love, and this is His omnipotent power. Christ is here! He is calling me! I am united with Him!

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