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Dreaming Anastasia

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Chapter One

Sunday, 1:40 pm

Anne

I don't notice him looking at me. Not right away. I mean, by the time Tess and I hike our way up to row 16, seats D and E, of the nosebleed section and squeeze past everyone else who's already seated-because, obviously, they have their own transportation and don't have to wait for my father to get done with his Sunday morning golf game to drive them downtown for the matinee of Swan Lake-it's almost curtain time.

So we're already at our seats before I feel some sort of weird, prickly tingling on the back of my neck and turn around to find him standing there staring.

I elbow Tess. "Look behind us," I whisper. "That guy. The tall one wearing the blazer. He's watching us."

"Guy?" Tess is not whispering. Tess never whispers. I'm not sure she actually can. "Where?" She cranes her neck in the wrong direction.

Tess is many things. Subtle is not one of them.

"God, Tess. Lower your voice. About four rows behind us. To the left."

"Not us," she says when she finally figures out where to look. "You. He's staring at you, Anne. And he's wicked hot."

I narrow my eyes at her as we plop down in our seats. "You promised," I say. "I mean, seriously, Tess. No human being uses that word somuch. Not to mention we're in Chicago, not Boston. So enough already."

"Sorry," she says-although she's grinning, so I'm pretty sure she's not. Tess visited her Boston cousins this summer and has developed a single-minded devotion to the Bostonism wicked. As in, "That test was wicked hard." "That pair of jeans is wicked cute." "Heather Bartlett"-who sleeps with any guy who can fog a mirror-"is wicked slutty."

Or, "Using a word so much that you kill the effect is wicked annoying."

Besides, I'm not sure I agree with her anyway. He's cute and all, and the blazer look works on him, but he's standing so still and looking at us so closely that I'm thinking stalker might be a better description than hot. And anyway, I'm surprised Tess thinks so. Tess is usually more about the piercings and the tattoos-the whole bad boy thing.

I sneak another look.

Stalker guy's no bad boy. At least not the parts of him I can see. He's about my age, maybe a little older. And he's tall, a little over six feet or so, with this shaggy, brown hair that he really should brush off his forehead. He's wearing khaki pants and a white shirt topped with the brown corduroy blazer. Pretty normal, other than the fact that he's a guy and he's at a ballet and he's alone. Not that I'm judging or anything.

But the thing is, he's still watching me. Okay, make that openly staring. And even from here, I can see that his eyes are this fierce, startling blue.

I stare back. He's not flirting. But he's not dropping his gaze either. And for a second, it feels a little more dangerous than flirting. More like crazy reckless.

And then honestly, because I'm me and not my best friend, Tess-who's blond and tall and has guys trailing after her like puppies-I'm just sort of irritated. Why can't some normal guy find me attractive? Someone who just wants to go for coffee at Java Joe's and maybe to a movie or something and not stare at me until I can actually feel my face getting a little warm?

"Do we know him?" I ask Tess.

She shakes her head. "Don't think so," she says as the lights dim, the music cues up, and Swan Lake begins.

I swivel in my seat to look at Mr. Blue Eyes again, but the auditorium is so dark that all I can see is his silhouette, which is pretty neutral on the hot or not scale.

On stage, handsome Prince Siegfried falls in love with the beautiful but doomed Odette. By intermission, they've danced their pas de deux, and old Sieg has promised to save Odette from her midnight-to-dawn swan enchantment-even though I seriously want to tell her to fly off and find some other guy who'll actually manage to help her. I've seen Swan Lake before. Twice-because even though I hate the ending, there's just something about it that makes me want to see it again. So I know the evil Rothbart has enchanted Odette. And that all Siegfried has to do is vow eternal love for her to break the spell.

Only come the end of intermission, he'll screw it up, just like always. Rothbart will enchant his own daughter, Odile, to look like Odette, and stupid Siegfried is gonna fall for it. He'll pledge his love for the wrong girl, Odette will stay doomed, and the only way out of the whole mess will be for Siegfried to die for her.

I mean, come on-how stupid is this guy that he can't tell a black swan costume from a white one?

The house lights flick on. Tess and I look behind us. Staring guy is gone.

"Too bad." Tess rummages through the little plaid Burberry bag she'd recently snagged from her mother's closet. She fishes out bronze lip gloss and applies some to her already sufficiently glossed lips.

"His loss," she says as we snake our way to the lobby so I can plunk down four dollars for a miniscule plastic cup of Diet Coke. "Mr. Stealthy just doesn't know what beautiful little birdies he's missing out on." She flutters her way-swan style-to the concession stand.

I grin. Encouraged, she flutters some more.

"Enough," I tell her. If I don't, the fluttering will go the same way as the whole wicked thing, and pretty soon, she'll be fluttering everywhere because she figures I think it's funny.

"Tight-ass." Tess makes a face. "And ooh, that reminds me. I wonder if he has one." She waggles her eyebrows at me. "You so want to know. Admit it."

I just shake my head. I'm not admitting anything. Besides, he'd never turned around.

"You know you do." Tess grabs my cup and helps herself to a few swallows. Translate-she gulps down the rest of it.

"Whatever." I hold out my hand for my empty cup, sigh, and toss it into the nearby trash can. "It's not like we're ever going to see him again."

"You just never know," Tess tells me as the house lights blink. "You just never know."

Sunday, 1:50 pm

ETHAN

I know I'm too close. That I need to be careful. That

I should look away.

But I don't.

She brushes some of her auburn hair out of her eyes, then leans over and whispers to the tall blond girl next to her. And then, as though she feels my gaze, she turns.

She's the one, I realize as we look at each other. After all these years, after all the times I've been wrong. This sixteen-year-old girl with the laughing brown eyes and the posture of a prima ballerina-she's the one.

Of course, there is only one way for me to know for sure. Until then, I can only go on instinct. And here, two weeks after I've first begun to follow her, that instinct is telling me I'm right.

Her instincts are telling her something too. Even in the darkness once the lights have dimmed, I know she is still looking at me, still wondering why I'm looking at her.

And for a few seconds, Brother Viktor's words echo in my mind.

"There will be a girl," he had told me. I was not called Ethan then, but Etanovich. "The books say she will bear our bloodline. She will be young, and she will be fiery. She will not know her destiny. But when you look into her eyes, when you touch her, the signs will be clear. You will know she is the one."

Just before intermission, I slip away. To stay now that Anne-that is her name, Anne, which surprised me at the same time as it seemed fitting-had seen me would be too dangerous.

So I will just keep watching. Soon it will be time to find her again. Time to know for sure if what the documents say is true. Time to know if my long, long wait is finally about to end.

Sunday, 7:30 pm

Anne

Thanks for the pizza," Tess says to my mother. She's flopped next to me on the family-room floor, her empty plate in front of her.

"Sure thing, sweetie." From her seat on the couch, my mom gives Tess a smile, then goes back to watching whatever it is she's watching on the Travel Channel-something about the top-ten romantic getaways, which is a bit of a stretch these days since my parents aren't exactly on a romance kick. My father is currently out on his post-dinner jog while my mother is curled up on the couch with the show.

The two of us-Tess and I, that is, since both my parents are avoiding wheat, and pizza is far off their list-just chowed our way through most of a medium Lou Malnati's cheese and tomato. This means we'll be sluggish and heavy when we tie on those pointe shoes tomorrow afternoon at Miss Amy's, where we're both in advanced ballet-but Lou's pizzas are worth it.

At least that's the story I'm telling myself.

But I've got some kind of crazy nervous energy zipping through me, and I think my metabolism is going to take care of most of the excess calories anyway. I've felt this way ever since Swan Lake that afternoon. The feeling stayed with me on the drive home from the city and didn't even go away when Tess and I worked on our world history homework while we waited for my dad to come back with the pizza. Which surprised me, because normally, world history is not exactly a subject that makes me do handsprings. Not that I don't like knowing about the stuff. I actually do. But Coach Wicker-who pretends to teach the class when he's not too busy figuring out football plays on the computer-is the most singularly boring individual I've ever met. He can take something that I find interesting-like, say, Henry VIII and all those wives-and turn it into something so ridiculously dull that suddenly, I can't remember which wife he divorced and which one he had beheaded, and I really don't care in any case.

"She looks good," Tess says after we've carried our plates into the kitchen and I'm wiping up the stray strands of cheese that dripped to the counter when I plated up the pizza from its Lou to-go box.

"Who?"

Tess frowns. "Who do you think?"

"Oh." I realize she means my mother. "Really?"

"Yeah," Tess says. "Not so thin, maybe. Not so-I don't know, fragile."

I shrug. "Maybe," I tell her.

It's something I try not to dwell on. Not that I'm successful at it or anything. But I do try, just like I've been trying for almost two years, and sometimes, it is getting better. Except for the part where my older brother, David, is no longer my older brother, because he's dead from cancer, and the rest of us-my mother, my father, and me-are still trying to pick up the pieces.

Which is why it helps to have a friend like Tess who can shift from where she's been-talking about how my mother barely eats anything these days-to where she heads now, so quickly, actually, that it takes a few seconds before I catch up with her.

"Well, anyway," Tess says. It's one of her favorite ways to jump topics. "He really was hot, wasn't he?"

"He who?"

"Ballet guy," she says. "Thick hair. Blue eyes. Serious studly goodness going on there."

I shrug again. "I guess," I tell her. "But that whole staring thing-what was up with that?"

"Doesn't matter. Doesn't diminish him on the hotness scale. Note, by the way, how I did not just say wicked hot?"

"Progress. That's good. Maybe you do have a learning curve."

"Funny. You are oh so funny, Annie. But I mean it. There was just something about him."

"Something annoying, maybe."

"You mean it? You didn't find him, like, way attractive?"

"I didn't find him not attractive. But it's not like he's going to keep me up nights. Like I said-all that staring. And his posture. He was so-I don't know, straight. So formal or something."

"Huh," Tess says. "Hadn't thought about that. But you're right. He was standing up pretty straight. Geez, Michaelson, give me a break. No wonder you ended things with Adam Green three months ago and haven't replaced him with anyone. You are seriously too picky."

"First, it's not like I'm ever going to see this guy again. And second, I ended things with Adam because all he was interested in doing was feeling me up and hoping I'd let him do more. Which, let me say, is not what I consider even slightly romantic."

"Someone's standards are awfully high."

"Ha, ha." I reach into the pocket of the jeans I'd changed into once we got back from downtown and pull out my cell phone. "Should I get Neal on the phone? Tell him you've changed your level of expectation?"

Neal Patterson is Tess's ex. If she had her way, he'd be ex to the entire world as well. Their breakup was, in a word, legendary.

"Whatever," she says. "But the guy at the theater was cute. And he's got that whole mystery man thing going for him. That's gotta count for something."

"Only if he drops back out of the sky and starts stalking you next time."

"It could happen."

"Oh, yeah," I tell her. "I'm sure. You want to study some more before my dad gets back and drives you home?"

"If we have to," Tess says.

"Thought you bombed that last quiz. That one on all the royal families?"

"Who can remember all that crap? Plus it's sort of sick that they were all, like, intermarried to each other. That was one small royal family tree they had going there in Europe."

"Nothing like keeping it in the family," I tell her. And then we get back to work.

Chicago, The Present

Tuesday, 5:55 am

Anne

Anne." My father bends over my bed, gently shaking my shoulder until I open my eyes. He's turned on the lamp on my nightstand, and I can see that he hasn't combed his hair yet, so it's standing up all spiky. He's still in a T-shirt and the plaid Old Navy sleep pants my mother bought him so he wouldn't wander around in his boxers and make us both uncomfortable, even though with all the jogging and avoiding wheat, he's in decent shape.

"You were screaming," he says. "You must have been dreaming."

"Don't know," I tell him. "I don't remember."

My father studies me, but he doesn't push the issue. "I'm going to shower," he says eventually. He gives my arm a rub, lets his hand rest there for a bit. "And your alarm is about to ring, so you might as well get up. You sure you're okay?"

"Absolutely," I tell him. I sit up and give him my best smile. And then I keep smiling until he walks out of my room and back down the hall. Until I hear him turn on the shower in the master bath and hear the TV click on in my parents' bedroom, which means my mother is watching the news or whatever while she gets dressed.

And then I stop smiling and concentrate on getting my heart to stop racing in my chest and my pulse to stop doing the cha-cha in my veins.

But I know that's not going to happen anytime soon. It never does. Not when I have the dream-the same dream I had Sunday night after Tess went home. The same one I've had too many nights to count in the past three years since I first had it, right after we found out David was sick-which doesn't even make much sense, since it's not a dream about him.

Truth is, I've always had strange dreams. Particularly because sometimes-a lot of the time, actually-when I dream, I'm not me. It's like watching a movie through someone else's eyes or something. While I'm saying stuff and doing stuff, I'm pretty clear that in the dream, I'm this other person, not myself.

Once, I even dreamed as a guy-not that I woke up with any stunning insights about the male psyche or anything, which certainly doesn't surprise me. Tess says with guys, it all comes down to three things-sports, sex, and food. Not necessarily in that order. For example in junior high, I was trying to write a short story, and I asked my brother David what he and his friends said when they thought a girl was hot. His response was, "I'd do her." Then he grabbed the bag of Cheetos, snagged the remote, and flipped between ESPN and ESPN 2 for the next thirty minutes.

But these past few nights, I've just been her. The girl who haunts my dreams but whose face I never see. The one who refuses to leave me alone.

(Continues...)

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